«|Le Finestro|»
"Don't refuse what comes, and don't chase what goes"
A person's mind is vast and deep.. it can do wonders when time is given to think.
People talk.. I sit back and listen.. Not because I dont have anything to say, but because I feel i'll learn more if I keep my mouth shut. For the most part i've been correct.
As I grow older the one thing that i've learned is that memories are the greatest source of happiness and regret. As the years go by, our most treasured memories slowly start to fade.. no matter how hard you try to hold onto them, in time they fade into nothing. Believe me... I know this for a fact. I've tried so hard to hold onto every thought in my life that has brought me joy at one point or another.. The look on my mothers face on my first day of school, My grandfather buying me big ass ice cream cones, my dad teaching me how to ride a bike, discovering that girls didnt carry every disease known to man, the loyalty of a true friend, my sister (despite the hell she puts me through) comforting me when I couldnt hold back my tears, my first love, my first paycheck, first everything.
Just a sample of the millions of memories this head holds. But.. but why do these memories intended to ease and comfort me.. bring hurt and suffering too? The fear of losing them is a burden I dont think I can handle anymore.. You know what scares me?... 10 years from now when I have a wife and kids.. I wont even remember writing this. And I'm pretty sure 75% of the memories I have now will be gone. And I can never get them back.. ever.
I'm sure I'll have new memories.. but how can they ever replace the ones I hold dearest to me now? .. ARGGGGG. I wish I had a big ass notebook which could store every thought in my head down to the smallest detail.
Another thing.. There are times when a person must forcefully try to forget memories that once brought so much joy. I find this to be true only in one part of my life. Love. Holding onto certain memories will never let you advance forward with your life. They'll only hold you back. Those who have experienced this probably understand me. I dont feel like I have to explain it anymore. So I wont.
I just ask one final thing, please think back upon all the memories.. smile one last time.. and forget them.
And so, this will be my final post under this name. If u want my new name lemme know :D
Peace.
.Drew
ps. Chookahae, neega eegyuddah. Jjal hae jjo. Ahneemyun naeguh nuh joogeendah. | 